Fat mom's a bitch when she's pregnant!

My wonderful brother-in-law, Justin told me that when I was pregnant with Ms Mylee almost exactly 7 years ago. It keeps playing over and over in my head the last few days. I hate everyone, seriously. It is all I can do not to freak out on people. Bj is fairly tolerable, though we even got into quite the "discussion" the other night over I cannot even remember what. The kids are making me insane. Hailey's dad makes me want to spit poison into his eyes because we make arrangements for his visitation and he doesn't comply with them and I ask him to convey messages to her since she really doesn't like to talk on the phone and she never gets them.  Random people make me want to scream at them just by walking in an annoying way. Yep, I am a miserable, pregnant bitch. I am usually so good at finding a positive attitude about things. I realize that attitude is everything and it's all about perspective...blah blah blah. It all seems stupid these days. I am just going to stay in my house and avoid the public, no one should have to put up with my crazy bitchiness, except Bj since this is all his fault. I also have zero motivation to do anything. My house looks like a tornado went through it and I've been trying to work on it all week and just feel like I'm covered in cement and can't do anything. I'm getting more sickness and crazy cramping all the time. And, I know this sounds crazy, but I am terrified that there is twins in there! I have way stronger symptoms this time than ever before, I'm much more exhausted than I've ever been, I had a dream that Bj and I were sitting together and two identical babies were crawling toward us, I keep thinking/saying 6 kids when I think about how many we're going to have even though I know this will be my last, and Austin told my dad I'm having two babies. All probably just crazy paranoia, but really, that would be just my luck!

In conclusion, I hate being pregnant and I am so glad this is the last time I am doing it! I am still super excited about the baby and cannot wait to hold him and/or her and kiss the little baby lips, but getting to that point sucks.