Why is there so much community blame going around for the horrible tragedy that happened last Friday? I have heard that it is due to taking God out of the schools, it's because we are accepting homosexual relationships, because we allow "assault rifles" to be sold to and owned by civilians. Why aren't parents being looked at a little closer?
While I agree that children have to be raised with a sense of right and wrong, I fully disagree that this must be done through church and God. I do not teach based on any religious beliefs and we do not go to church. My kids still know the difference between right and wrong. I am a good moral person raising children with morals and values and have never needed to put the fear of God into my children to do so. Saying that these things wouldn't happen if children were expected to pray in school every morning is just silly. Parents need to teach their kids right from wrong, with our without a belief in a higher power!
I can't even address the homosexual acceptance reasoning because this one will NEVER make any damn sense to me at all. I will use this opportunity to say that we are all human, we are all equal, and we should all have the same right to marital bliss (or misery, depending on how you do it). Who your neighbor marries will have no effect on your marriage at all, and if it does, you have far greater issues than who your neighbors are! I hate that such an important portion of our society is being discriminated against. I can't wait until our grandchildren look back on this time and think what a bunch of assholes we were for ever trying to discriminate based on something so ridiculous.
I am sick of hearing, "why do you need a rifle that will shoot so many bullets?" Ok, any rifle will shoot as many rounds through it as I put in it. These "assault rifles" are mechanically almost identical to any other rifle. They are not automatic weapons that shoot a hundred rounds with one pull of the trigger. The big difference between these rifles and your grandpa's deer hunting rifle is cosmetics. There are millions of people who own semi-automatic rifles that have never killed anyone. The second amendment was put in place to restrict the government from infringing on the right to bare arms. Please, explain to me how restricting the arms we can bare is not infringing. This isn't about the guns. This is about the individuals who committed these atrocious acts! You want to restrict something? How about we start testing and doing background checks for becoming a parent? We have so many children these days who are being raised by video games, not being supervised, not being taught! You want to ask me why I need a semi-automatic AR-15? Well, why the hell does your 8 year old need to be playing Call of Duty or Grand Theft Auto? Why are parents trying to be friends to their children instead of parents? Why are parents so afraid of recognizing an issue with their children and seeking the help that they need? Why aren't we setting boundaries and providing consistent consequences for actions? Children need to be taught about real life and parented and taught respect and responsibility. They need morals and values. I would be VERY interested to see how these killers were raised. Were they given boundaries and consistent consequences? Were they taught about the value of life? Were they "out of control" teens with mental issues that didn't receive the time, attention, and help they needed?
It doesn't matter what guns are restricted, it won't help. Sure, take away the guns that fire several rounds quickly. Automatic rifles are already illegal, didn't do as much good as you had hoped, did it? The next guy will just download plans for a home made bomb on the internet and blow up the entire school. IT IS GOING TO CONTINUE! The answer isn't taking away the means for the violence. It is parenting, raising kids who don't want to do these things, and recognizing mental issues before they get to this point and getting the help needed! Let's screen parents regarding values before they become parents. Let's offer a lot of parenting resources and education. Let's do mental screenings in high school like we do the SATs and get help for the children who need it! Don't get me wrong. I am about to have five children and the fact that I have five chances to completely screw up a child and send a mess of an adult out into the world scares the hell out of me. I will be the first to admit that I am FAR from the perfect parent, but I do believe that I am teaching them life lessons that need to be taught and I am involved with them enough that I will recognize an issue like this and get them help long before it ever gets to this point. The answer to these problems is good parenting and getting people the help that they need.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
9 weeks, 7 weeks, 1 year...
I am 9 weeks pregnant! I have not smoked at all, not even a drag while Bj was home, for 7 weeks! My baby is 1 year old!! I feel like time is just flying by. We have so much going on right now and I feel like just yesterday I was thinking, "I have a whole month to pack and get ready to move!" Now I am sitting here with more like 13 days and have done pretty much nothing! Whoops. With Bj being gone, 4 kids to keep up with, trips to town every time I need something, fatigue from the pregnancy, stress about getting this place back to the condition it was in when we moved in here, and finding a place to live next month, I have been a bit overwhelmed!
We finally found a place to live next month while Bj was home. It is a very, very small upstairs apartment unit. There are three bedrooms and one bath so it's a little better than what we've got going on now since we've only been using two bedrooms here. The complex has a pool which is right outside our door and a really nice park right down the road that I'm sure the boys and I will walk to as often as possible. My doctor's office is half a mile away so I could walk there when it's nice out, which is very nice. There is a grocery store which is also about half a mile away. I am not going to know what to do when I don't have to plan an entire day around a trip to the store! It'll be amazing! The rent is on the more affordable side of what we had budgeted so that is great! We paid a little extra to be able to start to move in on the 26th and the goal is to be able to wake up in our new place on New Year's morning! Overall, we know it's going to be tough with the limited space but we are very excited to get moved in and start this next chapter. As we've said to ourselves many times, it's only for a year and we can do anything for a year!
Yesterday was my little man's first birthday! This last year was crazy and went by so fast. Colton is such a fun, happy, easy little guy. He makes having a baby so simple! His brother and sisters told him happy birthday about 100 times yesterday, and even though he had no clue what was going on, I think he knew that he was a big deal. We did cupcakes for him on Sunday. I didn't make a super huge deal about it because, let's face it, a one-year old doesn't remember, nor care about, his birthday!
We are trying a new discipline/coping method with Mylee these days. She is such a sweet, amazing little girl, but she's also angry and sad about her dad and I getting divorced. She loves Bj and knows that her dad and I weren't good for each other, but still misses Shane so much that she wishes we would get back together. She takes all of this anger out on me because she doesn't get the chance to be angry with her dad due to his almost complete lack of involvement. This anger is expressed by her not doing her chores, yelling at me, having an attitude with me or her siblings, intentionally acting out, etc. I cannot continue to be punished by my 6 year old! She really enjoys writing these days so I got her a "time-out journal." I picked out a journal at Barnes and Nobles with a Footprints poem theme. I have been in love with that poem since the first time I read it, my mom used to buy me things with it printed on them, and Mylee has decided that, regardless of what anyone else thinks, she believes in God (which I think is incredible!), so it seemed fitting. She gets the journal when I can tell that she is struggling with feelings and she is to write me a letter in it to express how she feels and I will respond and we will try to work through her feelings in a productive way. We have done it once and right away she seemed to be feeling better so I am hoping it continues to help her!
The kids all have a Christmas program tomorrow night that they are SO excited about! Bj and I got them all new dress clothes for it and Austin is thrilled to wear his suit and "bow-tie" (it's just a regular tie but, try to convince him of that!) Hailey has two parts in the play so she is very excited and very sad that Bj won't be there. I probably better make sure to remember the camera!
We definitely have a very busy couple weeks ahead of us! My first appointment is Thursday, Bj should be home by the weekend, then it's Christmas, then we start moving! I probably better start collecting boxes and packing! Oh yeah, and our dryer is broken so I have to find a way to do all of our laundry in the meantime! Like they say, when it rains it pours. I am just glad that I am resilient and I can adjust to whatever life throws at me and make it work! I hope everyone has a wonderful, merry Christmas!!
We finally found a place to live next month while Bj was home. It is a very, very small upstairs apartment unit. There are three bedrooms and one bath so it's a little better than what we've got going on now since we've only been using two bedrooms here. The complex has a pool which is right outside our door and a really nice park right down the road that I'm sure the boys and I will walk to as often as possible. My doctor's office is half a mile away so I could walk there when it's nice out, which is very nice. There is a grocery store which is also about half a mile away. I am not going to know what to do when I don't have to plan an entire day around a trip to the store! It'll be amazing! The rent is on the more affordable side of what we had budgeted so that is great! We paid a little extra to be able to start to move in on the 26th and the goal is to be able to wake up in our new place on New Year's morning! Overall, we know it's going to be tough with the limited space but we are very excited to get moved in and start this next chapter. As we've said to ourselves many times, it's only for a year and we can do anything for a year!
Yesterday was my little man's first birthday! This last year was crazy and went by so fast. Colton is such a fun, happy, easy little guy. He makes having a baby so simple! His brother and sisters told him happy birthday about 100 times yesterday, and even though he had no clue what was going on, I think he knew that he was a big deal. We did cupcakes for him on Sunday. I didn't make a super huge deal about it because, let's face it, a one-year old doesn't remember, nor care about, his birthday!
We are trying a new discipline/coping method with Mylee these days. She is such a sweet, amazing little girl, but she's also angry and sad about her dad and I getting divorced. She loves Bj and knows that her dad and I weren't good for each other, but still misses Shane so much that she wishes we would get back together. She takes all of this anger out on me because she doesn't get the chance to be angry with her dad due to his almost complete lack of involvement. This anger is expressed by her not doing her chores, yelling at me, having an attitude with me or her siblings, intentionally acting out, etc. I cannot continue to be punished by my 6 year old! She really enjoys writing these days so I got her a "time-out journal." I picked out a journal at Barnes and Nobles with a Footprints poem theme. I have been in love with that poem since the first time I read it, my mom used to buy me things with it printed on them, and Mylee has decided that, regardless of what anyone else thinks, she believes in God (which I think is incredible!), so it seemed fitting. She gets the journal when I can tell that she is struggling with feelings and she is to write me a letter in it to express how she feels and I will respond and we will try to work through her feelings in a productive way. We have done it once and right away she seemed to be feeling better so I am hoping it continues to help her!
The kids all have a Christmas program tomorrow night that they are SO excited about! Bj and I got them all new dress clothes for it and Austin is thrilled to wear his suit and "bow-tie" (it's just a regular tie but, try to convince him of that!) Hailey has two parts in the play so she is very excited and very sad that Bj won't be there. I probably better make sure to remember the camera!
We definitely have a very busy couple weeks ahead of us! My first appointment is Thursday, Bj should be home by the weekend, then it's Christmas, then we start moving! I probably better start collecting boxes and packing! Oh yeah, and our dryer is broken so I have to find a way to do all of our laundry in the meantime! Like they say, when it rains it pours. I am just glad that I am resilient and I can adjust to whatever life throws at me and make it work! I hope everyone has a wonderful, merry Christmas!!
Sunday, December 9, 2012
2 years already!?
On this day 2 years ago, I met my best friend and the love of my life! I had just moved back to Utah after living in Minnesota and Texas for about 7 years and was separating from my husband at the time. When my ex-husband and I separated in November 2010, I told my dear friend that my next boyfriend would have to drive a big Chevy truck, drink Bud Light, and love to hunt, shoot guns, and be outdoors (the exact opposite of my ex-husband). He said, "well, let me give you Bj's number, he fits that description." I let him give Bj my number and he text me that night, November 19. At first, I wanted nothing to do with Bj. I was still pretty confused about my marriage and separation and moving and all the big changes that were happening for myself and my kids. My friend, Ali, was visiting me in Texas the night he and I started talking and I remember telling her, "Oh wow, this guy is ridiculous!" (to be fair, he was drinking and that does make him a bit ridiculous) I didn't text him or reply to his texts much after that but it didn't stop him from texting me every morning to say good morning and most evenings to ask how my day was. The kids and I moved from Texas to Utah around December 1st and he was still texting me daily and pretty much getting brushed off. He was persistent, that's for sure! One night I was talking to our friend, Zac, who spent a lot of time with Bj and asked him what Bj was doing and he said that he was hanging out with his "girlfriend." This obviously irritated me quite a bit, enough to peak my interest, if for no other reason than to call him out for being a jerk! So the next morning I asked him how his night with his girlfriend was and he denied having one and was very adamant that she was just his friend. I started to give him a hard time about it which led to more texting than usual and actual conversations between us. I found out that he was actually kinda charming and interesting. We ended up talking on the phone a few times and decided that we should meet. I arranged for my parents to watch the kids and came down for the night to hang out with him and Zac. All the way here I was so nervous. I just kept thinking, "what if he doesn't like me?" and "what if I can't stand him?" along with about a million other things that someone headed for, basically, a blind date probably thinks! When I got to town I was supposed to call him so he could meet me and lead me to his house but of course my phone didn't get service in the middle of no where so I had to call him from the tire shop. I called him and he met me about 10 minutes later. It was probably the longest 10 minutes ever! As soon as he pulled up and got out of his truck I knew I was in big trouble! I can still remember what he was wearing: wranglers, boots, an old grey high school hoodie, and a hat. He was pretty muddy from working on the farm and I just remember thinking, "aaaw! He didn't shower or change or anything before he came up here! Now that's a real man and he's not trying to hide who he is!"
We met up with Zac and he and I headed to town and Bj was going to meet us after he got his paycheck. We headed to Chili's to wait for Bj and I was so scared that he would sit by Zac once he got there (completely silly girl shit, I know). Luckily, I must be a little better looking than Zac because he slid into the booth next to me, still wearing the muddy clothes! Yay! I could tell he was nervous too and it was so damn adorable! He bought my dinner then we talked Zac into driving my van back to Bj's house so we could ride together in his truck. He needed some new boots so we headed to the store to shop. He seriously put his boot on the wrong foot when trying them on! His face turned bright red and again, he was just so damn adorable! He finally found the pair he liked and we headed to the gas station to get a few beers. We headed to his house, which was about an hour trip and we talked the whole way about past relationships, what we wanted out of life, what we expected in a relationship, and I seriously knew I was going to fall in love with him!
That was the beginning of what has, so far, been the greatest chapter of my life story. We are now raising 4, almost 5, babies together and I am amazed at how wonderful and easy a relationship can be. We get irritated with each other, we say things we don't mean at times, but we always work through it. We've seriously been through a lot, but every time we face a challenge together, we come out of it stronger as a couple. I cannot imagine a more amazing father, husband, and best friend! I am seriously the luckiest woman in the world! These two years have been awesome and I love looking forward to the rest of my life with him!
We met up with Zac and he and I headed to town and Bj was going to meet us after he got his paycheck. We headed to Chili's to wait for Bj and I was so scared that he would sit by Zac once he got there (completely silly girl shit, I know). Luckily, I must be a little better looking than Zac because he slid into the booth next to me, still wearing the muddy clothes! Yay! I could tell he was nervous too and it was so damn adorable! He bought my dinner then we talked Zac into driving my van back to Bj's house so we could ride together in his truck. He needed some new boots so we headed to the store to shop. He seriously put his boot on the wrong foot when trying them on! His face turned bright red and again, he was just so damn adorable! He finally found the pair he liked and we headed to the gas station to get a few beers. We headed to his house, which was about an hour trip and we talked the whole way about past relationships, what we wanted out of life, what we expected in a relationship, and I seriously knew I was going to fall in love with him!
That was the beginning of what has, so far, been the greatest chapter of my life story. We are now raising 4, almost 5, babies together and I am amazed at how wonderful and easy a relationship can be. We get irritated with each other, we say things we don't mean at times, but we always work through it. We've seriously been through a lot, but every time we face a challenge together, we come out of it stronger as a couple. I cannot imagine a more amazing father, husband, and best friend! I am seriously the luckiest woman in the world! These two years have been awesome and I love looking forward to the rest of my life with him!
Thursday, December 6, 2012
We are not going to die!
I keep reminding myself that we are not going to die. Oh, we can't pay the electric bill on time? It's ok, we'll figure it out and we're not going to die. Shit, I have no gas! It's ok, we'll figure it out and we're not going to die! So, the kids are being hellions today and I'm exhausted? Put on some cartoons and rest on the couch, because for sure, we're not going to die from it! I get myself so stressed out and worked up about everything: the kids being dressed well, the dishes being done, the floors being mopped, the balance in the checking account, etc. Sometimes I forget that these things are important but they are not life or death. I also forget that things always work out in the end. Hailey and I have had so many rough mornings due to her fashion choices on school days. I have no idea what goes on in her head sometimes but she dresses funny in my opinion and I get so worked up about it! I forget that I need to let go of control and let her find herself and her style and if she feels comfortable in the outfit she chose, who am I to tell her she shouldn't wear it (modesty expected and not negotiated on, of course)? Don't we all have elementary school pictures that we look at and say, "Did my parents really let me out of the house in THAT!?" It's part of her process of growing and finding herself and I hate that I get so worked up about it and try to change that part of her. I am 100% sure none of us is going to die from it! The housework gets done sporadically, the house is not disgusting, we are not headed for any of the nasty-house reality shows, the kids have clean clothes and the dishes get done when it becomes necessary and we are not going to die if the house is not immaculately cleaned! We have food on the table and bills get paid before anything necessary gets shut off or is repossessed, we are NOT GOING TO DIE! I spend so much time thinking about, stressing about, and getting worked up about all of this stuff and it's so pointless. The solution always reveals itself in time and never has stressing about it been beneficial to me. So, my thought for the day is "we are not going to die!" I am going to go play with my kids and let the house be a mess and the bank account be overdrawn and the kids be dirty. Who cares? The kids are all healthy and happy and we'll all live!!
Friday, November 30, 2012
7 weeks-possible TMI-all pregnancy related!
I am now 7 weeks pregnant. Only 33ish to go. Wahoo. I am fairly miserable with this one. As I've outlined in recent posts, my demeanor is less than pleasant. I feel nauseous pretty much all the time, in a car it is intensified. I'm having horrible cravings for things that I don't even like. I devoured 10 jalapeno poppers earlier this afternoon and I hate jalapenos. These are officially my pregnancy addiction...well, for now. I am also craving jagermeister (a craving I have not satisfied) and I have never, ever liked that stuff at all. I also have so. much. cramping. I have never felt so uncomfortable so early! I have honestly contemplated a trip to urgent care a couple times. Because of this I will probably call and bump up my first prenatal appointment a bit. When I called to make my appointment they were willing to see me right away at 4 weeks so I am sure this won't be a problem. Maybe I'll even get an early ultrasound for a sneak peak. I am also way more exhausted than I have ever been in a pregnancy. I wonder if that has anything to do with already having 4 kids, including one that is still a baby, and Bj being gone with all the stress we're under right now?Nah...probably not. I miss Bj like crazy! Honestly, before he left, I was ready for some space and a break but, I'm done now. I want my husband back. My house is a disaster, I would honestly give someone my very last dollars to come sweep and mop my floors and fold my laundry. But, I am going to make great efforts to get all of that done this weekend. I am sure my kids will be super helpful. The good news is this will all turn into an awesome crying, pooping, sleep machine and that really is super amazing and awesome! I am a horrible pregnant woman but a great mom. Can't win 'em all. :)
Monday, November 26, 2012
Amazing!
My kids are just absolutely, incredibly, amazing! I know, all moms say that, and all moms are right! Anyone who knows my kids doesn't need to be convinced that they are freaking rock stars, but that's okay, it's my blog and I'll brag if I want to!
I'm going to start with Ms. Mylee. That girl...oh that girl! "She is somethin' else," I always say. Since the day she was born she has had a mind of her own. She was colicky and lactose intolerant so the first few months of her life were a complete struggle for both of us. The only way we could get her to sleep was to play jungle sounds on a CD player in her room, complete with very loud monkey screeching, at FULL VOLUME. This is how she got her nickname, Mama Monkey. I have no idea how we figured that out to be honest, but it was a life-saver for all of us. That was probably about when I realized that I had created my mini-me. She is so strong-willed. She knows what she wants and she is smart and creative and will find a way to get it no matter how many times she's told no. She's a sweet and caring child, too. My mom passed away when I was 3 months pregnant with Mylee (my mom's name was Myra Lee and that's where we got Mylee's name) and her birthday was this last Saturday. I told Mylee and Austin that it was Grandma Myra's birthday and Austin said, with a very sad face, "but grandma is dead." Mylee said, "that's ok, we can still sing to her, she'll still hear us." And so they sang. She is sassy and can have quite the attitude at times but also has a tender heart and would never intentionally hurt anyone, emotionally or physically. She is extremely smart! She reads and does math way ahead of her grade level and enjoys letting people know that she is smart.
Next is Hailey. Oh my dear, sweet Hailey. She is my sensitive child. She feels all the emotions around her. She had a boy in her class that was autistic when she was in kindergarten and she was trying to help him do a puzzle. The little boy got frustrated with her and pushed/hit her to get her away from him. A few days later some other kids in the class weren't being very nice to him and my sweet little girl stood up to them and said, "everyone needs friends and he deserves friends too, so be nice to him!" Still to this day she has no problem standing up for what she knows is right and has a damn good moral compass for an 8 year old. She's also extremely smart. She has almost finished the Harry Potter series, she only has the seventh book to read, and that's only because she got into the Percy Jackson series and it deterred her. She's currently on the third book in that series. She always gets her homework done on the bus on her way home from school and gets excellent grades and reports from teachers. She's also pretty funny. She comes up with some pretty good original jokes. She's super helpful, too. If I need help with something, she is always right there. She loves to bake and help with her little brother. She keeps her things nice and neat which is great since she's the only one in the house who does!
Little Colton James is getting so big and fun! I cannot believe he will be a year old in 3 weeks! His nickname is Evil Knievel, this child wriggles his way out of everything...the walker, the highchair...if he's in anything long enough he will fall out on his head. It's scary for sure! He said his first word the other day! He's been making the "mama" and "dada" sounds for a while now along with random yelling all the time, but the other day Bj went outside for a minute, which really irritated Colt, and as soon as he walked back in the room Colt's face lit up and he said, "dada!" very excitedly! He's said it to him a few times since as well so I am officially calling it the first word. He loves his walker and scoots everywhere in that thing. He's even gotten to the point that he lifts it up when he gets caught up on things. As soon as he gets the standing/balance thing down he's just going to start running, I'm pretty sure. He's convinced that he's way beyond being fed and that he needs to have foods that he can feed himself so we are working on that. He's a super happy baby and makes having a baby really fun and easy!
Last, but certainly not least, Mr. Austin! He is so sweet! He tells me at least 20 times a day, "mom, I love you!" He is obsessed with everything Spiderman right now and thought that he was the richest little boy in the world when I bought him two of the movies at the pawn shop for about $5. He told everyone his mom bought him Spiderman movies for $100 at the store. He is not at all shy and makes friends everywhere we go. He is pretty funny and has the most adorable laugh! He's also quite sensitive and thoughtful. When I asked him what he wants for Christmas he told me about a couple toys that he wanted and a blanket then said that he wants a rose to give to me. He adores his big sisters and misses them like crazy all day when they are at school. He learned the pledge of allegiance at school and messes it up in a few parts and it's actually completely adorable. He loves to be a big helper to mom with the housework. He really loves to hear stories, especially about Spiderman or Cars. He gets so excited over everything and it is so fascinating to me to see his innocence and amazement at the things that we take for granted.
They are certainly not perfect, but, like I said before, my kids are absolutely, incredibly amazing!! This all makes me super excited to meet the new baby and nurture and guide him or her into becoming the amazing person he or she is going to be! Even with the crappy attitude I've had lately, I can see that I am a very lucky woman and I have so very much to be thankful for!!
I'm going to start with Ms. Mylee. That girl...oh that girl! "She is somethin' else," I always say. Since the day she was born she has had a mind of her own. She was colicky and lactose intolerant so the first few months of her life were a complete struggle for both of us. The only way we could get her to sleep was to play jungle sounds on a CD player in her room, complete with very loud monkey screeching, at FULL VOLUME. This is how she got her nickname, Mama Monkey. I have no idea how we figured that out to be honest, but it was a life-saver for all of us. That was probably about when I realized that I had created my mini-me. She is so strong-willed. She knows what she wants and she is smart and creative and will find a way to get it no matter how many times she's told no. She's a sweet and caring child, too. My mom passed away when I was 3 months pregnant with Mylee (my mom's name was Myra Lee and that's where we got Mylee's name) and her birthday was this last Saturday. I told Mylee and Austin that it was Grandma Myra's birthday and Austin said, with a very sad face, "but grandma is dead." Mylee said, "that's ok, we can still sing to her, she'll still hear us." And so they sang. She is sassy and can have quite the attitude at times but also has a tender heart and would never intentionally hurt anyone, emotionally or physically. She is extremely smart! She reads and does math way ahead of her grade level and enjoys letting people know that she is smart.
Next is Hailey. Oh my dear, sweet Hailey. She is my sensitive child. She feels all the emotions around her. She had a boy in her class that was autistic when she was in kindergarten and she was trying to help him do a puzzle. The little boy got frustrated with her and pushed/hit her to get her away from him. A few days later some other kids in the class weren't being very nice to him and my sweet little girl stood up to them and said, "everyone needs friends and he deserves friends too, so be nice to him!" Still to this day she has no problem standing up for what she knows is right and has a damn good moral compass for an 8 year old. She's also extremely smart. She has almost finished the Harry Potter series, she only has the seventh book to read, and that's only because she got into the Percy Jackson series and it deterred her. She's currently on the third book in that series. She always gets her homework done on the bus on her way home from school and gets excellent grades and reports from teachers. She's also pretty funny. She comes up with some pretty good original jokes. She's super helpful, too. If I need help with something, she is always right there. She loves to bake and help with her little brother. She keeps her things nice and neat which is great since she's the only one in the house who does!
Little Colton James is getting so big and fun! I cannot believe he will be a year old in 3 weeks! His nickname is Evil Knievel, this child wriggles his way out of everything...the walker, the highchair...if he's in anything long enough he will fall out on his head. It's scary for sure! He said his first word the other day! He's been making the "mama" and "dada" sounds for a while now along with random yelling all the time, but the other day Bj went outside for a minute, which really irritated Colt, and as soon as he walked back in the room Colt's face lit up and he said, "dada!" very excitedly! He's said it to him a few times since as well so I am officially calling it the first word. He loves his walker and scoots everywhere in that thing. He's even gotten to the point that he lifts it up when he gets caught up on things. As soon as he gets the standing/balance thing down he's just going to start running, I'm pretty sure. He's convinced that he's way beyond being fed and that he needs to have foods that he can feed himself so we are working on that. He's a super happy baby and makes having a baby really fun and easy!
Last, but certainly not least, Mr. Austin! He is so sweet! He tells me at least 20 times a day, "mom, I love you!" He is obsessed with everything Spiderman right now and thought that he was the richest little boy in the world when I bought him two of the movies at the pawn shop for about $5. He told everyone his mom bought him Spiderman movies for $100 at the store. He is not at all shy and makes friends everywhere we go. He is pretty funny and has the most adorable laugh! He's also quite sensitive and thoughtful. When I asked him what he wants for Christmas he told me about a couple toys that he wanted and a blanket then said that he wants a rose to give to me. He adores his big sisters and misses them like crazy all day when they are at school. He learned the pledge of allegiance at school and messes it up in a few parts and it's actually completely adorable. He loves to be a big helper to mom with the housework. He really loves to hear stories, especially about Spiderman or Cars. He gets so excited over everything and it is so fascinating to me to see his innocence and amazement at the things that we take for granted.
They are certainly not perfect, but, like I said before, my kids are absolutely, incredibly amazing!! This all makes me super excited to meet the new baby and nurture and guide him or her into becoming the amazing person he or she is going to be! Even with the crappy attitude I've had lately, I can see that I am a very lucky woman and I have so very much to be thankful for!!
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Fat mom's a bitch when she's pregnant!
My wonderful brother-in-law, Justin told me that when I was pregnant with Ms Mylee almost exactly 7 years ago. It keeps playing over and over in my head the last few days. I hate everyone, seriously. It is all I can do not to freak out on people. Bj is fairly tolerable, though we even got into quite the "discussion" the other night over I cannot even remember what. The kids are making me insane. Hailey's dad makes me want to spit poison into his eyes because we make arrangements for his visitation and he doesn't comply with them and I ask him to convey messages to her since she really doesn't like to talk on the phone and she never gets them. Random people make me want to scream at them just by walking in an annoying way. Yep, I am a miserable, pregnant bitch. I am usually so good at finding a positive attitude about things. I realize that attitude is everything and it's all about perspective...blah blah blah. It all seems stupid these days. I am just going to stay in my house and avoid the public, no one should have to put up with my crazy bitchiness, except Bj since this is all his fault. I also have zero motivation to do anything. My house looks like a tornado went through it and I've been trying to work on it all week and just feel like I'm covered in cement and can't do anything. I'm getting more sickness and crazy cramping all the time. And, I know this sounds crazy, but I am terrified that there is twins in there! I have way stronger symptoms this time than ever before, I'm much more exhausted than I've ever been, I had a dream that Bj and I were sitting together and two identical babies were crawling toward us, I keep thinking/saying 6 kids when I think about how many we're going to have even though I know this will be my last, and Austin told my dad I'm having two babies. All probably just crazy paranoia, but really, that would be just my luck!
In conclusion, I hate being pregnant and I am so glad this is the last time I am doing it! I am still super excited about the baby and cannot wait to hold him and/or her and kiss the little baby lips, but getting to that point sucks.
In conclusion, I hate being pregnant and I am so glad this is the last time I am doing it! I am still super excited about the baby and cannot wait to hold him and/or her and kiss the little baby lips, but getting to that point sucks.
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